I can't keep going this way..

I told myself today was gonna be the day
No more excuses 'cause I knew exactly what to say
Was gonna make my play but just like yesterday
My mind in waste and I let the moment slip away

Another night got me sitting here all on my own
Picking up the phone
But I can't get past the dial tone

#Rocking my brain
Going insane
Again and again
I can't (won't) keep going this way#

*Crushed by the sweetest lips
I've never kissed
How you bring the tips
and the warmest touch that I've always missed
Crushed by the softest hands that I've never held
Probably never tell
You're the strongest love that I've ever felt
Crushed that I haven't ever let you know
How it always goes
'cause I lose my nerve whenever you get close

And so I'm left
Short of breath
With that heavy feeling in my chest
Baby I'm so crushed*

So I told myself that tomorrow's gonna be the day
And I keep on telling myself that I'm gonna find a way
And I won'te be afraid just like yesterday
Won't walk away never gonna let another chance slip away

'Cause I gotta know whichever way it's gonna go
Rest my heart and soul 'cause there can never be no more

Repeat # *

Don't know what I'm gonna do
Gotta find a way to you

I don't know just what to do

Don't know what I'm gonna do
Gotta find a way to you

Crushing I'm so into you

Don't know what I'm gonna do
Gotta find a way to you

And so I'm left
Short of breath
With that heavy feeling in my chest
Baby I'm so ...

Repeat *

Don't know what I'm gonna do
Gotta find a way to you

I don't know just what to do

Don't know what I'm gonna do
Gotta find a way to you

Crushing I'm so into you

Don't know what I'm gonna do
Gotta find a way to you

And so I'm left
Short of breath
With that heavy feeling in my chest
Baby I'm so ... crushed



I used to have this song in my playlist,
but I didn't really notice it's lyrics.
Every word resemble my feelings.
Without you,
I'm nothing.
But if nothing last forever,
can I be your nothing?

I feel like dying.
I've no more energy to continue on my pace.

Perhaps I'm nothing to you,
but what you are to me.
Are wordless feelings.
It hurts when you stay silent,
it's hurt even more when you ignore my presence.

I can't bear it anymore.

Yeah, push all to me.

It's all my bloody fault.

Know what?
I'm gonna ignore everythings.

It seem so meaningless.

I've nothing to live with.

I don't see a reason why I should live.

I always tell people to get a life, dude.

But yet,

in fact, I'm the one who should get one.

Really, I feel like yeah,

ignore school, slack.

Just skip school, ignore,

And live all my own way.

I feel like dying,

in case this is something you wish to see.

GO SCHOOL SEE PEOPLE ATTITUDE,

AT HOME HEAR MOM SHOUTING AT NIECE.

I'M LIKE NO ONE IN THEIR MIND LAH.

YAH LAH, GO ASSUME LAH, GO GO.

DON'T TALK MUCH,

JUST PUSH EVERYTHING TO ME.

YES, I MEAN EVERYTHING.

NOT IN TERM OF SCHOOL,

OR AT HOME.

JUST PUSH IT TO ME,

SO I CAN FEEL BETTER.

A PEACE IN MIND.

WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO?

I CAN'T SCOLD THEM.

I COULD DO NOTHING BUT TO STAND IT.

I FEEL LIKE LEAVING THIS HOUSE.

I FEEL LIKE GOING MISSING.

YEAH, AT LEAST I COULD GET THEIR
ATTENTIONS.

NO ONE SEEM TO SENSE MY PRESENSE.

SHOULD I SAY,

"I'M MISSING, DON'T EVEN BOTHER FINDING ME"?
OR SHOULD I SAY,

"PARDON ME FOR MY
CHILDISHNESS"

It's terrible.
This feeling is terrible..
unbearable..

我很痛苦， 真的很痛苦
我想回到过去，可以吗？

Today we had a class party!
Event at 11.45a.m to 12.20.
It'll be remembered always.
Thanks Ms Goh and Mdm Kaur!
I guess a lot of class should be envious beh?
And class event day!
We'll be going to East Coast.
Enjoy picnic there and..
do what we want!
I'll go find dajie if she's working during that time!
And we'll be hiring a bus and go together as a class.
And and,
our class jersey haven't been settled.
They're slow lur.
-.-

And after school,
Darren, Elvin, Gary and me went 148 eat.
But 148 is having a break.
So damn, #$%^&*
we've to changed spot eat.
While eating,
we chatted a lot of things.
Tons and tons.
I just hope some bitches and bastards didn't appear in my life,
now I live with regrets with them around.
How cruel the world is.

9 more days to mid-year.
Jiayous everyone! x3

Anyway,
Aaron,
I don't know what wrong with you,
you don't seem to be yourself.
I doubt some bitches or bastard must've said something again.
Believe it or not.
Decide whether it's a eternity friendship or not.

Just give me a break.
I'm really breaking down.
Like what Gary say,
we won't get to know tomorrow stuffs.
To me,
a new fresh after 11.5p.m.
A brand new day.
Isn't it?
Can I say something that I longed for?
Aren't promised mean't to be not broken?
I did it.. my heart has turn from liquid to solid.
No longer weak nor easy to bully.
Don't show your hypocritical side of yours.
Just hide it.

You know it yourself..

Will there be eternity friendship?
Will there be trust?
Will there be backstabs?
Must it be like that?
Should I follow my destiny?
Give me a clue.
Just a clue is all I needed right now.

I need your glance.
LOVE

Went to braces earlier on alone.
All not free,
or perhaps,
I lazy to ask.
They won't go anyway,
I don't need their accompany anyway.

Aaron asthma attack again?
Take care lots.

Braces trip was super funny for me.
I was there,
and someone called the receptionist.
This is what happened.

Receptionist: Hello, this is Wee and wee surgeon, may I help you?
(I think this is what the person said)
Person: I'm parma here.
Receptionist: Ma ta? Huh?
(Her action super stupid, she is so retarted, could hear the wrong thing)
I was laughing*
Person: No, Parma.

And the conversation continues.
Lazy to explain in details.

I don't know what's with my mood.
Sigh.

I very wuxim leh!
I'm rushing in time and I'm here to blog!

I gave up?
:]

I felt more happier now!
So damn happy lahh,
and the class is getting lamer and lamer!

Wohoo!
And will be going out to meet them for dinner,
and later will meet the class for CIP!
We'll be delivering food to those poorly elderly.
Well,
it's a deed!

Alright, I've to go now.
Cyaa.

Heng ah!
Last night slept at 6+a.m
Went in the room, and settle myself down in a comfortable place,
and suddenly..
Mom alarm clock rang!!
Sibei heng!
If I continue playing the computer and she saw it,
she'll definely scream!
And she will switch off the electricity..
and my screen will..
turn black obviously ==!

Will be going for dinner with family later on.
Wonder which restaurant they going again.
Their recommendation are always such lousy,
I don't like it at all lah.

And analyst the whole concept,
tomorrow is the last chance,
further than that,
I'm not going to pursue already..

Happy birthday Aaron!

Happy birthday to you~
Happy birthday to you~
Happy birthday to Aaronnnnn~
Happy birthday to you~


I gave myself one more day to reconsider.
Hopefully I'll make the right choice.

Tomorrow is Aaron birthday.
Siewwww lah.

PE was super funny.
Mr Satwant ask Azree to demonstrate how to play the game to the sec1,
and Azree has lots of patten and style.
Was super funny,
the sec1 was boo-ing him.

Just one more glance is enough,
two is too much.
Thanks for the last glance x/3

Hear the difference! SO CUTE!

Hopefully everything will come to a end.
Twinny all those problems, tons and tons.
I couldn't help in anything. Yes, none.
Perhaps I'm useless to her,
perhaps I'm useless in any ways.
Seriously, please take good care.
Don't make this twinny here worry for you, OKAY!?

Schools life.
Perfectly alright, only with studies.
But overall, the class is getting united each day.
On one day, I laughed till cried.
It's really very very funny that I couldn't resist it.
On chemistry, Ms Prema was going through FYS.
And asking questions, and Azilah answer it.
Blahh, I forgot the questions and answers.

I will try to avoid next time.
Since you won't probably notice me anyway.
This time, my heart is dead.

Ohya, Aaron birthday!
Everytime he is organizer,
but this time his birthday,
I don't know what to get him.
19 April '08. Sigh.

very pain*
what can I do?
it hurts*
:(*

I wonder why should I go to school?
What's the reason?
Do I have to feel glad that I've school to attend?
Perhaps not.

Anyway had class photo today,
stupid Azree chose soccer field,
and we are like inside the goal post?
It was scorching hot there,
but all of us preserved for his needs.
My class malays are always so self-centered.
They only care for themselves.
I guess.. our class has become more united?
Yeah, I love my class :]

19 days to MYE if I'm not wrong.

OHYAH!
I'm supposed to study today!
And after I went in to maple,
my mind straight away maple maple maple!
And those mind of words have a sudden loss of words.
Gosh! If I don't start studying now,
I'll end up being a pathetic loser.
Yeah, what I mean by pathetic loser is,
the worst among my friends.
Which I definely don't want to.

IMiss'h

Here to wish Dillon MAMA and Dillon niece, Fayth HAPPY BIRTHAY!

HAPPY BIRTHAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MAMA, FAYTH~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.

Happy 52th birthday MAMA!
Happy 11th birthday Fayth!


May all wishes come true x3

I'm rushing in time now. Blahh.

Anyway, I'm here to wish one of my bro happy birthday!
Happy birthday to you~
Happy birthday to you~
Happy birthday to Elvin~
Happy birthday to youuuuu~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU DUMB ARSE!

Erase all your memories,
erase all your tears.
Jeerfully kicks on,
happily live on.
You'll always be loved dude!

I could hardly bear to let you go.
I guess it was all one-sided.
Yeah, I'm a stupid fool.
Definely one of those.
I'm too naive all along.
Perhaps dumb, not naive.
Or, have I been dreaming all along?
My heart really hurts for no reason.
I feel like sobbing. Could I?
I really couldn't control my mind.
The mind that keeps thinking of you countlessly.
I wonder when will you ever know,
perhaps not in this life time.

I couldn't grab the chance,
fearing it would has been a disappointment.
Please, if you have seen my blog,
Do know how I feel.

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